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[Dec. 10th, 2005|06:43 pm] |
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something sad, yet funny- my dad thinks i'm still in band |
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| De ja Vu |
[Dec. 2nd, 2005|10:58 pm] |
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it is very odd...
even the opening scene of Mr. and Mrs. Smith seemed... so
framiliar.. AND I SWEAR I'VE ALREADY SEEN THE NEW EPISODE OF FOAMY....
maybe this is a sign my life is so redundant that i've already viewed all there is to see...
lol, nice emo approach to it, right?
aside from that... and most everything else.. things are alright. i
made it through this week alive anyway.. which is amazing.. i made it
through wearing real clothes 5 days in a row.. i just want to wear pj
pants, sweats and t shirts the remainder of my life. what's the point
of living life to look good when it's so uncomfortable, time
consuming... and just a waste of energy?? people cake the make up on
(i'm not kidding either), spend an hour on their hair.. it all gets
messed up during the day... and then you have to redo it all..i once
figured out how many days of my life i would spend using a blow drier
if i blow dried my hair every day ... i can't remember what it worked
out to be.. but it was crazy
enjoy life. Wear pajama pants.
my new motto.
hmmm...
i know what i WANT to write about.. but i don't want to bore anyone.. well.. screw it. you can just live with it.
i haven't heard a thing from howie in a week.. i understand that it's
harder for him to contact me now, and that's fine. i don't hold it
against him in any way... but it still sucks to say the least.
something's so weird though... i HaTe writing this but.. to me it
feels like he was just.. never here. it's like he's not a reality
now. (i'm not complaining.. i just need to say this in some way
to stop thinking about it. This was my choice and i would do it the
same way a thousand times over) i KNOW that I saw him maybe 2 or 3
weeks ago.. but it just doesn't feel like i did. it doesn't even seem
real that he came home after basic.. but when he does come home, it's
like he never left.
wow.. sorry...
anyway... i guess i'll go. take care everybody and have a nice weekend.
don't party too hard C:
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[Nov. 26th, 2005|01:51 am] |
"ARE YOU SAYING I'M A LIARS WITH THE FALSENESS OF FiCITIONESS AND THE STATEMENTS UNTRUE?"
very wise indeed.. i love you pillz-E |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|10:49 am] |
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*meow*
i love long breaks from school.. it's like going to sleep for 14 hours.. you wake back up feeling completely different and almost relieved that everything will fall back into place the way it should.. and aside from the fact that i haven't even started my homework.. nothing could bring me down at this point.
yes... it is good to be in a good mood |
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| wow.. been awhile.. again |
[Nov. 9th, 2005|05:27 pm] |
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grr.. ignorant people irk me so....
hmm.. want me to clarify?
okie dokie, can do
what's the point of a constitutional ban when the action in question is already outlawed? not only that, but taking it a step further... ... the constitutional ban passed YESTERDAY not only banned gay marriages and stated that a marriage is a union between one man and one woman.. but also that any action RESEMBLING the union of marriage would also be banned... what does this mean? no civil unions... why is it bullshit?? here's my logic.. yes, go ahead make gay marriage illegal.. because when you really think about it marriage is a RELIGIOUS action.. it is, i'll give you that. and because most religions see this action as sinful and "wrong" as well as "ruining the sanctity of marriage" fine... once again, i see your point. it's your faith so oh well.. but civil unions? give me a break... you can think it's wrong but when you say that anything resembling a marriage is WRONG between two people that LOVE eachother... that's joining your religious morals with the government.. and what is it supposed to be? yes... seperation of church and state is a BEAUTIFUL thing... here.. see it my way please since i spent the time to try and see it your way... a couple has been together for say.. 15 years... they really do honestly love eachother whether you see it as wrong or not... one gets a heart attack.... the other wants to see his/her partner in the hospital... but this person in question can't... why? because the state refuses to recognize their union. their loved one could be one their DEATH BED... but no... "you're love is wrong and therefore, the state won't allow you to see your loved one before they die"... that's not the kind of government i like to put my trust in... and besides.. in my opinion the "sanctity of marriage" is already ruined... you don't need to allow people who love eachother to get married for that to happen.. what the hell did brittany spears' 55 hour marriage do for the sanctity of marriage? ( i find that funny) or people who get married the night they meet..... or anyone who marries for money or any other materialistic bullshit like that...
*kt steps off of her soap box now*
i just need to move out of texas to a more accepting state.... which might actually be happening soon.. my mom was talking about it again today so.. yea... oh well, maybe a change of scenery would do me some good.... i dunno...
aside from that, things are good. colorguard's alright.. me and chloe are talking again and howie will be home tomorrow night... i can't wait. it will be awesome... i have to say bye to him again monday though.. this one's really going to be hard....
but dont think about that, right? the last thing i want to do is cry over that again. but i can't stop thinking about it... as much as i'm starting to change my views about the "war" in iraq... i don't want him to go.. maybe that's selfish.. but... i can't help it.. i 'm so scared that he won't come back... i keep trying to tell myself that he will but.. i know that last time i hug him before he leaves... i'll be thinking that it will be the LAST time that i get to....
grr... stop it kt...
i'm gonna go.. ryan called so.. later |
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[Oct. 28th, 2005|10:54 am] |
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wow.. so much to do.. but i'm really really sick
i have to get not one.. but TWO freshman colorguard teams ready for competition in... 2 weeks.. no practice this week though.. i have to do rehearsals for the veteran's day ceremony.. so later today is colorguard training camp hosted by.. me.. at my house.. this will be fun.. after that is the football game.. and then saturday i have to do colorguard for the opening ceremony for the school.. which in itself is rediculous enough.. because school has been open for nearly 2 months... and then next weekend is a rotc camp.. where i will be learning ground fighting techniques.. i can't wait to take a certain few people down and make them eat dirt.. it will be good.
so yea... aside from that.. it's been mostly drama.. because people are stupid and need to have a needle shoved forcefully into their eye.. maybe that'll teach them. and this coming week several people MIGHT be demoted down to private for their attitudes and mistreatment of the LET 1's... yummy.. once again, it will be good
i have gotten more angry and violent this year....my apologies
and on to something that ReAlLy bothers me.... if you take our school.. double the students in it... and.. drop a bomb on the school monday morning.. that's equal to the number of american lives lost in IRAQ... lovely thought right there.
grrrrr... i just want to lock myself away from everything.. from school and stupid people mostly... they both irk me so... BASTARDS!!! |
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[Oct. 15th, 2005|07:17 pm] |
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i just want to be angry at him... so incredibly angry at him that i don't miss him anymore |
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| wee!! |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|07:04 pm] |
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wow.. been awhile again.. it's hard to write anymore.. wish i knew why.. but i shall give this another attempt... here goes...
today was day one of raider testing...
raider-wanna-bees- myself, salazar, gatlin, langdon, and andree
phase one- pushups- cadets still remaining: langdon, andree.. and me!
phase two- sit ups- " "
phase three- one mile run- " ": andree and.... me.. barely
phase four- let knowledge-" "
so yes.. tomorrow.. the dreaded 3 mile road march and the horizontal ladder.. wish me luck...
and.. aside from that.. things are alright. studying my history a bit now.. cuz i won't get to cram the weekend before the upcoming test... another orienteering meet.. but this one is a 2 nighter... YAY!!
hmmm..
no matter how many times i push the military to the side telling myself that i'd go crazy with all the... strict discipline... it just keeps coming back into mind.. i dunno... it would be a good way to just... obtain freedom (in one sense).. and i think it's an honorable thing to do.. i admire it... so... geez.. i just don't know anymore
well.. anyway.. i'll stop boring you.. and i need to get back to note taking..
later mis homies! |
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| "i'll be back.. these people don't know what to feed you" |
[Oct. 4th, 2005|04:13 pm] |
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today.. bleh.. today.. howie left... again.. poo head... but it won't be so bad.. i get to talk to him on the phone this time... hooray!
annnnnnnnnnd.. finally orienteering scores are up! i placed 2nd and wayne got third.. it is good. first place beat me by roughly 10 seconds... oh well.. maybe i won't be moved up to advanced yet! (high hopes)
so.. that's all that is going on at the moment... slightly bored.. don't know what to do with myself.. i have make up work.. but that's no fun.... and yes, i skipped yesterday, i enjoyed every minute of it too :P skipping is fun.. i think i'm hooked now...
and.. that's it.. because i feel awkward.. it's been awhile.... |
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[Sep. 23rd, 2005|09:49 am] |
the process of boarding up windows continues today.. and luckily.. i get to stay inside.. because i'm a girl... hee hee.. no manual labor for kt today... hooray for that extra x chromosome....
aside from that... i actually think this experience might be somewhat interesting.. more worried about my sugar gliders and howie getting home safe than anything else... we were going to leave.. but now we stay... where do i stand on this issue?? i really don't care either way... and the people that have left.. i hope they have gotten to wherever they're going safely..... and to the people other than my family that have stayed behind... it doesn't make us any better than those who have left their whole lives behind... maybe they're the smart ones... what were all of us thinking about the people who stayed behind in katrina and had to be rescued?? "what morons, why the hell didn't they leave???!?!?!" i'm not saying rita is just like or worse than katrina... my point then? the trite saying of "better safe than sorry" i'm just sick of people acting all high and mighty and calling those who left pussies and ignorant...
well.. there's my two cents... and then some |
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| yes.. i said it.. belly buttons.. |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|07:23 pm] |
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it still itches.. like crazy...
my mom argued with me for 30 minutes that my belly button WON'T dry up and fall off.. i'll show her.. apparently when i was lying in the grass after my meet saturday i got bitten by some sort of spider.. inside my belly button... must..... resist.... the... urge... to... DAMNIT!!! i'm going to scratch it anyway... what do they know?
today was alright... well.. up until 6th period everything was okey dokey smokey.. then i was made upset... i hate my stupid girly emotions that make me want to cry during labs.... CURSE YOU ESTROGEN!!!
maybe i should begin pumping steroids.. then i'll be muscly and not oh so emotional at times.. but then i'll be more angry than i am now.. and my voice will become lower than mi hermano's....
i got a handfull of ORANGE pipe cleaners in the mail today... YAY!!! it was sweet... and i ate a school orange.. it was actually very delightful...yummy...
... never thought i'd do this either.. resort to trying to win stuff through calling a radio station.. first it was for nine inch nails tickets.. don't know why- i wouldn't be able to go if i won them anyway... and then i tried for the new disturbed cd coming out TOMORROW... both times i got a busy signal... stupid radio people... well.. anyway.. off to study history for the essay part tomorrow.. that and sleep... need sleep.. or i'll die... |
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| weee |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|06:31 pm] |
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wow... my legs are dead
today was fun! we don't know who placed and who didn't yet.. because la port is stupid and can't do anything right.. grr... wayne did great- i was so proud of him. he ran the course in about 20 minutes and got ALL of his points... he wants to do it all four years now.. hoooray.. and first sgt. asked him if he would be willing to learn how to play taps for veteran's day and such... sweeeet...i am slowly turning him from a band nerd to a rotc cadet.. GO ME!!
as far as me.. i think i did pretty good. got burned up nicely... i hope i placed... but then again i don't.. i don't think i'm ready to move up to advanced, but i'll trust 1st sgt's judgement. it would be pimp to have another medal though C:
aside from that.. a lot of studying must be done this weekend.. along with an english essay.. i think i'll get to it tomorrow.. my brain's fried... majorly... and besides, i have better things to do... like.. shaping my beret.. polishing boots.......... tending to my sun burn.... and thinking about stuff..
later homies |
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[Sep. 16th, 2005|05:50 pm] |
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dear god i love fridays.... i think next friday will be the best one though... C: i can't wait...
does it make me a bitch that i can't put up with chloe's whining about michael being gone? i keep trying to find the words of comfort for her (because that's my job).... tell her it's not that bad and that she'll make it.. but pushing those words deep down is me wanting to tell her to shut the fuck up and deal with it.... he's been gone a week, go cry to someone else... and he's coming back for homecoming weekend...and then he'll be back in another two weeks.... grrr... TRY FOUR MONTHS....
ahh.. got that one out of my system.. so it's all ok now.. well.. yea.. sure...
HOORAY for orienteering meet tomorrow though.. it shall be good. get all hot and sweaty with muscle failure in the legs... sounds like oodles of fun.. and i'm not being sarcastic.. it's different to run through the woods vs. on a track... it feels better...
4 days until the new disturbed cd comes out!!!! hee hee... deliciousness.... too bad i'm still flat broke... YaRrRrRr
school isn't so bad... getting better... just be hyper and happy and the day goes by well enough... i'd still rather just stay in my room all day... hell, just home aLoNe all day..... that would be nice...
i'm not very... grr.. i can't explain it... maybe i can.. but not in this...gyar... i put a lot of dot dot's though.. interesting (dot dot dot)
i shall go.... dot dot dot.. later mis homies |
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[Sep. 14th, 2005|04:27 pm] |
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i was going to do homework and some much needed studying today.. upon arriving home i watched blues clues... then i made home made funnel cakes... and for the past 2 hours i've been playing halo 2 with my brother... lol.. studying.. riiiiiiiiiiiiight |
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| hooray for red heads!! |
[Sep. 10th, 2005|06:06 pm] |
"Blondes may have more fun, but redheaded women have a special quality that is as unique as their hair color. They have an innate ability to tolerate more pain than other people."
score for jonesey... hee hee... too bad it's not the same with red headed men... once again, score for jonesey. C: |
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| anger..resentment...and sickness.. my labor day weekend!! |
[Sep. 3rd, 2005|08:31 pm] |
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blehhh.. where to begin??
2nd week of school was a slight improvement of the first one.. still finding random bursts of anger aimed towards.. certain people.. but i'm keeping it all under control, because i'm just good like that
except with people that spit on my little brother... i want to kill that bastard.. i just don't get it.. how the hell can someone DELIBERATELY hurt another person like that??? sure, people can be assholes unintentionally... but.. oh yes, "the spit happened to fly through my mouth at an accelerated rate, on accident, and just happened to hit your little brother, sorry".. yea, kiss my ass... if i had been there (i left the game after colorguard due to illness.. and not feeling like watching my friends hang all over their boyfriends/girlfriends that they are in "love" with, sorry) i seriously would have pushed my way into the band stands and beat the living hell out of that piece of shit kid.... yea, i'm still pissed if you didn't notice.
OTHER than that...
still need to do pre cal project.. i'll call samantha tomorrow.. or just finish it myself... i got a letter thursday (yay!) 20 days til howie graduates (double yay) talked to sarah today (triple yay) and i heard that doke is shipping out to baghdad in november(damnit) makes me want to cry
upcoming events:
monday- fill the boot in atascocita for the victims of Katrina... stop by and donate if you can, plus you'll get to see me in bdu's drenched in sweat!! the sexiness never ends C: jk
Sept 17- orienteering meet, my second one and wayne's first one.. i hope he does good, it would be righteous for him to wear a medal on his uniform already
Sept 23- howie graduates!!! (week of homecoming as well.... grrr... )
that's all i can think of at the moment...
i think i want to make cookies.. because cooking is fun.. especially when you're sick.. then you get to spread the love of your illness to everyone JOY.. or maybe i don't feel like making white chocolate chip cookies.. i feel like doing one of two things.. 1. laying in bed doing nothing but existing and thinking or 2.beating the shit out of a certain band member
hmm.. i'm leaning twords doing the second one and then the first one.. too bad my mom already forbade me from doing it.. i don't care.. kick me out of nhs, ambassadors and staff.. send me to ae.. it would be worh it to see him bleed...
ok.. angry kt again.. breathe... calm..... that wasn't pleasant... must not... explode...
lol and to top it off, colorguard is MaJoRlY getting on my last nerve.... it's just a joke anymore....
i'm very sorry for this entry.. forgive me??? |
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[Aug. 27th, 2005|09:27 pm] |
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okie dokie....
what to write???
school.. is meh.. my schedule's fine.. don't know if i WANT to do pre cal or chem thing... i just don't enjoy either anymore... but we'll see. english is fun though!as i'm lost as to how i'm going to make it through speech or staff without killing somebody... hee hee... joy joy
aside from that... not a lot of happy thoughts, but it'll get better. it always does. mi padre is being a major el dicko.. but... accusations of a "too serious relationship w/ THAT BOY" are really beginning to piss me off... how the hell can it be "too serious" if he's not even here??? what, i've been getting too many letters??? pishaw... and news flash.. "that boy" has a effing name... just as mine is katie.. not sarah... you'd think he'd know my name too.. he picked it out.. oh.. but the similarities between us are astounding.. neither of us can do anything right to him.. oh wait... sarah joined the miliary... so she has a one up on me now..
(*note to self- never marry an alcoholic*)
sorry.. venting...
yay!! home made frappucino's... that don't cost a whopping four dollars... stupid coffee nazis...
27 days until howie graduates from AIT!!
so.. bitching aside... um.... yea... lol one week of school down and already i'm waiting for next summer... |
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[Aug. 26th, 2005|08:36 pm] |
sarah found out today that one of her friends from basic died... IED.. improvised explosive device... he was trying to get an injured soldier to safety.. and... yea... she told me she's treated and spoken with soldiers that had their friend just.. explode behind or in front of them.... they're not allowed to throw their MRE trash over the side of a truck.. when they used to, an IED would be placed in the trash.. so later when somebody picked it up.....
...the biggest danger to our soldiers is something they can't defend themselves from |
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| off mood.. hooray |
[Aug. 21st, 2005|07:57 pm] |
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i dunno.. today started out really good.. heard from howie again..
but now.. something just doesn't feel right... horribly horribly not
right..maybe it's just the thought of school again.. i'm nervous
oh well.. if worse comes to worse, look for me crying on a stairwell..
AnYwAy.... well.. there is no anyway. cuz that's pretty much it.
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